20th day...

last nite b4 wanna sleep gastric pain plus the stupid guy disturd....how to sleep well leh...sleep liao wake up...keeping like this...haiz...go to school...try to concentrate la...try to be more 'jing sheng' la...but last nite i done eh thg...juz making the thing become worst n worst...i did wrong again...i should control myself...but i din do it...so u bring more troubles to her...but i reali not mean it...but all ald been too late...sorry ald become useless to her...today i really feel very down, but keep try smile out...try my best ald...today afternoon is the 1st time i din take a snap...when i lay on the bed, my mind just start thinking that thing and thinking of her...i love her...i dun wan to let go...so my tears start fall...try to stop...but juz out of my control...i'm serious...i really give u time to think...this time dun care of me...wat u wan just told me...i really dun wan see u unhappy n keep nervous...haiz...i just know now i will start keep my thing inside my heart...can accept eh cnt accept eh oso keep inside...i think thats will be better...trust really very important in our relationship...no secret in our life...try to accept wat i really cant accept...forget today...delete today memory...haiz...gd nite la...i think i will try my best la...accept all what i cant accept....sweet dream..tata..i love u, my darling!!