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刘楷弘死了......

我的心情

如果分离真的是唯一的解脱，那我还能说什么??
你曾说过这一辈子都爱我，那为何又要再一次伤害我??
你说过你会永远陪伴我,为何现在你又选择走??
你说过那些都是你的真心话,为何还要选择放手??
为何你偷走了我那颗真心后,把我丢在后头??
因为你,我变得坚强;因为你,我不再逃避,
但最后还是一样的结果.....
在学校你可以很坏,空节跑到食堂去,副校长要求见父母,你没当一回事,
你可以逃课不去补习,去新世界走走....
当你要面对他,你却变得如此的懦弱.....
对...也许是我不懂,两个人都无法融入彼此的世界....
我痛恨我自己....痛恨我自己不比他坏.....
往往心底善良的人终需要被牺牲....
我现在只懂如果你还是继续如此的懦弱,那你的生活永远都摆脱不了他的存在,
那你就要接受别人的控制,不要埋怨你得不到你想要的自由....
其实你可以摆脱的,只是你得固执你得懦弱让你变得失败.....
你想要你自己的生活是靠你自己去争取,不要跟我说不能....
你可以跟大人物坏,你却不敢跟那个小子坏....
就算今天我成全了你,让你走....
但你没有试着去摆脱....你还是永远的累.....
你的生活是你自己去掌握去控制....也许你妈可以去控制....
但不是一个跟你没有任何关系的人去控制.....
你有权力去选择你要的生活....不是他想要你过怎样的生活....
他没有那个权力....还是算了吧....说如此多....对你来说只是废话.....
你永远都不会听....你只会去做他想要你过怎样的生活....
其实我们可以很快乐.....但你的懦弱.....祝福你吧!!
如果你选择回到他身边,那就别埋怨他控制你...因为是你选择的....

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today no nit work so can slp til 10am juz wake up...wakao...juz wake up no long nia tiok stomach pain...celaka....haiz....agak pain liao dunno how many hours...haiz....thn juz hav the mood sms...
haiz....din work stay at house reali v sien lo...haiz...ntg to do...on9...watch movie...ntg else i can do...so i go to swimming...juz nw go pasar malam wit yc...haha...he buy the cubic again...super sai...
thn reach home no long nia tiok at msn chat wit me say tat he ald solve the problem....
celaka...si pek lan si....haiz....ntg ald sien...slp ald....tml date few colleague go queenbays...
haha...my mum ko gv me money buy new year t-shirt ald...yeah...i can spend it.....gd nite...

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today the 2nd day packing....finally after today then i can get rest ald....
today i went to work...i bring along my laptop n speaker....
haha...cuz thr din hav HI-FI ald....so i bring my laptop thn can listen song while we working...
haiz...ntg special la...thn afternoon got 1 ppl treat us eat ice-cream..haha...work work work...
work til 8pm...thn can go bec ald lo....haha...thn my head department treat us eat sushi king so we went to prangin mall to enjoy it....haha...we 9pm reach thr thn eat tiao agak 10smth....haha....
reali v happy...the last memory left at thr....at thr i eat 3 bowl of rice..haha.....
eat ka my stomach v full...after that tiok say bye bye to all....finally is time to say good bye....

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today wake up early....juz slp a few hours...haiz....no choice la...9am go wait the foreman...
haiz....he say he cnt go so far...haiz...nvm la...thn yp introduce mean do locker wan....haiz...
he say tat he din hav the materials to service wave 125 eh....wah.....reali v down lo...
cal oth shop..cnt come oso...totally down....thn cal my mum cal my ah gu come n do for me lo....
sad...finally my ah gu come....haha....starting reali hav a bit disappointed wan...cuz cnt...then he open the cover...then fixed....wah...key can put in ald....but cnt turn kok...thn...try n try n try.....
yeah....can ald...haha....can start ald...wah....happy.....my mood frm hell bec to heaven again....haha..
today she come to 1-stop....feel terkejut...cuz suddenly come...haha...after repair my motor...
i go buy mc'donald....treat my department eh ppl eat....plus 1 chinese department n 1 english head department....haha....nvm la...happy ald....can treat...thn we start work hard....work work work....
thn til 5.10pm....wah...tea break....eat mc'd.....haha....we enjoy together...english head department he cm n say funny thg again...make us laugh again....reali beh tahan him....haha...after tat continue work....til 7pm...today they say tired....so can bec early...haha...v gd....thn wait my dad fetch my bro come n tk his motor...thn i ride my motor bec....finally reach home....today i ride v slow...cuz my dad follow me...haha....reach hse juz see tiok the msg u sd me...my mood drop frm heaven to hell again....i reali hope tat i'm a stp guy....dunno wat u write...
haiz....but i stil 'jian ci'...thx u gave me the chance....hehe...love u...kk la...i wanna slp ald...tml reali the last day of work...a bit she bu de....haha...tml my head department treat us eat sushi...haha....cuz our sales reach 99k....juz only our department....haha...although din hit the target....but a gd result oso la....hehe....kk ba...gd nite n sweet dream....

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today 6th DEC last day for the fair...oso the last day for my work....aiyaya...
nit to fight to hit the target 100k....haha...11am....the door open ald....alot of ppl coming...
but stil less thn the 1st day la...but beter ald.....stand at my position...promote to customer...
haha....fight fight fight.....today morning i gave her a surprise....tat i wake up early...
thn i go cititel find her....actualy i very slipy wan...but whn see tiok her...everythg juz solve...
haha....my head department laugh me thn she start counting i can tahan how long dwn group wit them....beh tahan them....keeping bullying me...haha....today reali v happy...haha...thn whn wanna close agak 915pm++...we start joking at thr...haha....reali v funny...haha...start dance...talk stp thg...
laugh laugh laugh....stomach wanna pecah ald...haha....after tat we hav a small party....haha....
we tk picture together...all the part timer....the all staff...thn enjoy pizza, kfc n sandwich....haha...
finally almost 11pm ald....thn tiok balik.....they say wanna go kek lok si....actualy i dwn go eh...wanna go bec slp...aiyaya...so big group go thr...cincai lo...ma follow lo...smmr chee koon dunno road...so wanna bring him bec ma...kk lo...go go go....v happy go tk motor....i wanna scold rude words ald...my key cnt put in.....argh......my mood totally drop frm heaven til hell....wtf.....
haiz....thn no choice lo...cal my dad come n fetch me bec...haiz...but til house 12am ald...bath thn on9 a while 1smth...haiz....tml smmr hav work....ko wan go find repair motor wan...gd nite ba....sweet dream....

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today reali dunno how to start write this blog....haha....i ald started....
wat wanna say ar??everyday are the same wor??haha....
juz wanna say today is the last 2 day of working....haiz....tml last day...
wanna say gd bye ald...aiyoyo....everytym when reach the time to say gd bye sure hav abit sad wan.....v sien wit this kind of feeling...dunno y....today after u work u come 1-stop....
feel a bit weird..dunno y...cuz u juz walk pass lik tis....hehe...after tat u cm to my department...
din talk oso...i feel tat we should nt be lik tat....so i 'zhu dong' a bit lo...so tat if nex tym we quarrel...
i wil be the 1st person come out say sorry...yaya...i stil v love u...n the feeling wont gone....
it alwez keep inside my deep heart....no matter how sad how hurt i'm...the feeling will still remain at thr....even after i die the feeling stil at thr....i will bring it along wit me...haiz...tired ald...tml last day...i tiok keep a bit jin sheng ba....so work hard for last day...gd nite....sweet dream....muackzzz....

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today same life la...a bit sien....lunch time i eat myself...good...i can 1 person eat 1 person thk...
no ppl wil disturd me....last nite dunno y....v hard to fall asleep thn 6am lik tis ald wake up...
so when working i feel v slipy...so after i ate 2 bread whn dinner....i tk a nap in staff room..
juz agak 15min ba...haha...thn i go drink tea...haha...can be more 'jin sheng'....
stil left 2 days for my work...haiz...start she bu de...cuz whn working reali v nice....juz lik enjoying
my life....din hav any difficult oso....can play wat song i lik to listen n sing..haha...i sing v geli...
nt i dun sd tat msg to u...i reali feel tat she help me sd it wil be more beter...dunno may be u wont
feel it so...but i feel tat will be more beter....haiz....reali v tired ald....so i wanna go to slp ald....
gd nite ba...sweet dream....

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Today is the last 4th day working...so mean that still left 3 days only...haiz...
today reali hav abit sien...time pass v slow....haiz...lunch no mood to eat oso...
juz eat abit...thn after lunch bec to work...listen tiok she is coming...
yaya....she coming with her sis....thn lik tis lo....after lunch tiok wait dinner...
same la...2 bread...jagung favourite wan...haiz....after dinner tiok wait 'fang gong'.....
yaya...i saw the msg ald...frm jx's fon..cuz my fon no battery ald...so....
ntg to say...tired tired tired....juz wanna slp...today my 'bmw' v gd....can help me 'lap' til 105km/h...
v long din hav tis kind of feeling...haiz...wat can i say? wat can i do?? got....juz dun thk too much...
slp early lo...gd nite....sweet dream....

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today same la...back to work ald...haiz....v sien...lazy to wake up...haha....
i think today is the day that i most enjoy eh...cuz today my department din hav head department..
haha....so i'm head...so i wanna listen wat song watch wat movie....i oso can play it...haha...
feel tat today's time reali pass v fast...cuz today i start feel i dun wan go bec home...cuz i wanna work....wah....i change ald o......i reali start love my jod....cuz tat time i can enjoy it...
listen song and tat is free...haha...i oso dunno y i start feel i wanna stay at work i dun wan go bec??
may be when i'm working i can be myself...can do wat i lik to do...no ppl wil control me...i oso wont control myself...listen hip-pop song can dance...haha...actually i din lik tis kind of song..but customer wanna test ma...so no choice lo....knw a guy at the working place...he quite nice...haha...i can joking wit him whn i show off how rich i'm!! but i not rich la...juz saja play play la...haha...but juz nw make his hand injury...haha...i ald say sorry to him i tel him tat sorry, my watch rm300++ juz lik a weapon can protect me wan...haha...sorry la...juz joking...not lan ci....how is ur work??i thk u kk la....
ald do so many times...thn gd nite la....sweet dream....bye....