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today continue the same...wake up early n go to work...the journey oso the same...the whether oso the same..so hot...today big jie jie off...but today we hav a new head department...haha...so me n chee koon work hav a bit serious...haha...dunno his style so cnt play yet....finally ground floor eh mamak shop open ald...so went to thr eat economy rice...reali v cheap...haha...today work reali v sien...cuz a few customer...haiz...no nit serve oso...juz stand at thr....yaya...i thk i'm tired...my mental are tired...nit to take a rest..so tml i off i can rest...not to thk...i can slp til v late...juz enjoy my 1st day free eh holiday la...gd nite...sweet dream!!

5th day tat u travel...

today same as yesterday wake up at 9am...thn bath thn work...everyday repeat the same thing...
today i gv my colleague ‘kek'...haiz...i reali din watch b4 studio glibi eh cantoon ma...
haha....so i buy the collection...haha...but big jie jie borrow ki liao cuz she tml off so can watch...
cincai lo...i v gd eh...today she coming bec...yaya...she say tat midnite flight...dunno oso...whn i work til half...helping my customer testing vcd...celaka...my hp keep ringing...a bit tl....cuz bo eng tiao keep cal me...last...i cal chee koon replace me...i run to toilet....i c who cal me...so emergency...
is she...my darling...so i sms her....come bec liao tiok gd la...today my dinner oso the same- 2 bread wit jagung favourite.....today hav a thg make me v no mood...tat is i wanna to told that the guys tat try to control my life...i wan tell them tat u r juz who u r and i juz who i'm....u not my god...u din hav the power to control my life...wat i wanna do tat i thk i'm rite i wil do it...no matter who u r??if u wanna stop me thn i wil tell u tat i wil try my best to do it...haiz....tml ko got work...slp early la...gd nite....

4th day that u travel.....

today i starting enjoying my work....
play wit my head department, chee koon n 1 fren tat usm student 'big jie jie'....
today many kopitiam sell economy rice wan close....
so i went to ground floor thr buy rice.....
knn.....juz tk a bit nia...celaka....RM5.40.....upstairs thr juz eat RM3.20...here more expensive 2.20..
reali beh tahan....today my pocket money juz left rm7 nia....reali wanna die ald....
so after work i went to my mum house tk money....haha....r bo tml no nit eat meh....
how r u today....tml u come back already....actually i should feel very happy...but y i din hav tat kind of feeling?? May be i ald v tired....so bye la...go to sleep ald....nite....

3rd day that u travel...

Today wake up quite early...continue i have to work...haiz...so tired...
stand at thr almost 9hours...reali v tired...today i more enjoy on my work...
cuz less ppl come ald...thn today muet teacher come...Mr. loke....
haha...introduce him some nice voice...he reali buy...beh tahan...so rich wan...
i just nw today i ald miz u less...dunno is gd or not?? at least i no nit so heart pain...
but....haiz....how r u today?? go whr play?? got eat o??
hehe...

Happy birthday to u...

1st time i use blog to wish happy birthday to u...
sms u wont receive...laptop u din bring...
anyway juz wish u hav a Happy birthday at thr!!

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Frm the 1st day i ald knw tat u din bring ur hp....
but i dunno y i keep looking on my hp...
c whether got msg or not??
y i'm so stupid??y i keeping cheat myself tat miracle wil happen...
but all this wont be happen...
i reali try to be smart u knw??
but y i stil lik to cheat myself....
i ald try but ..............
everytym when my fon vibrate...
i reali hope is u...
i start cheat myself tat u use ur dad or mum hp sms me...
but i reali is the world's most stupid guy.....i thk i wanna throw away my hp....

2nd day that u travel...

今晚又是一个无星星闪烁的夜空.....
一个人骑着电单车在回家的路途奔驰...风之速...感觉还是一样...没有特别...
尝试了...尝试..把自己的工作量弄到最多...让自己没有时间休息....
因为这样想念你的时间会变短了...可是当客人要求试听音乐的时候....
前奏刚响起...在心里压抑许久...想念你和爱你的感情爆发了出来...
顿时的我就快崩溃了....很想哭了.....
当最后还是收回了我的眼泪....
今天工作真的很累....
站到脚快断了...但还是要继续....
又开始胡思乱想....我有开始对我自己失去了信心....
我真的不会是个好男人,也不会是个好情人....
我真的能给到你想要的幸福吗??我不懂...我不想我不能...但这答案不是我决定的....
你今天玩得开心吗??吃饱吗??
我不懂只能靠想象....

1st day that u travel...

today i wake up early cuz stil hav alot thg i hav to do...
juz wake up a while u sms me...yaya...laz nite dunno y...
cant slp well...juz keep awake...hav thg to thk....
i'm thinking tat how can i survive for the 5 days that din hav 1 msg wit u....
haiz...til morning this problem oso cant fixed it...
wat should i do is juz accept the truth...
Ppl say tat when u miz a person...
the star wil drop....
tonite the sky are so dark...
thr even no star at the sky....
cuz tat i reali miz u so much....
miz u juz lik my heart wanna start break...
juz lik my tears wanna drop again...
how r u today?? enjoy at thr???
haizzz...today the time pass very slowly....
ntg i can do for it....so i juz listen to u...
go n watch the movie tat u lik....prison break....
i ald watch 6episod in 1 day....
cuz i juz try to shorten the time tat i miz u...
but no matter what i try...u juz keeping appears on my mind......
wat should i do juz can help me stop thk of u??
today i reali go to airport i saw u sit at the mc'donalds thr....
i walk pass u...but u din see it...may be i wearing a cap...so u cant recognise me...
i'm trying hard to dun miz u so much...i trying...
i try dun to worry about u...but how could it be??
the day become dark n dark...i miss u become more n more....
i love u, darling....

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你想念我吗??
我好想念你....
想念你的夜里无法呼吸...
因为你是我的氧气....
没有你的夜里...
加上只有少许的氧气...
让我无法不想念你....
我好爱你....
想你想你想你...
想到眼泪都要忍不住掉下....
你睡得很甜吗??
没有我温暖的拥抱...
你是否可以那么的熟睡??
你今天开心吗??
终于可以看到你....
你的脚还痛吗?
我的还有少许的痛....
天气凉了记得多穿一件衣服....
因为我不能时时刻刻在你身旁给你温暖...
我爱你....

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today early morning taking pp exam....walao eh...just study then after that forget all...
10.05am starting...after take the paper...see here n see there...go toilet 1st la...haha...
after that just start writting....sai sai...11am finish ald...still left 2 hours....sien sien sien...sit at thr 'tu ku'....haiz...suak suak ki liao la! today is the 2nd time my fren that do the thing that make me laugh n make me feel heart pain! she accident in the early morning today...reach school i saw her cry...haha...i laugh because this cal 'hiao'...raining day ko drive so fast then accident liao ka lai cry...make me feel heart pain is her leg injury...omg...i cant see that wan...see liao i wil vommit...whn some one help her use dettol to wash...omg...i can feel the pain!! 1st time is she drunk...haha...then she vommit tat make me laugh...1st time i see tiok so sai eh guy drunk juz 1 tin only then vommit til so gai...make me feel heart pain is that she feel sad so juz drink beer! like this is hurt tiao herself...suak suak ki liao...reach house...finally i can take a gd nap...then 5smth i go my mum house swimming....swimming more than 30min then bec my mum house change cloth, wear up my sport shoe...go jogging...haha...so fit ar!!kk la....juz finish run 2 rounds nia...aiyoyo...rain again...but i still continue..run ka half...aiyoyo...so big ald...so juz give up lo...
haiz...sien sien sien!! tired liao...so wanna sleep liao...gd nite...

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一个人在灰暗的墙角哭了好几回....
哭泣是小女孩所做的事吗?不属于大男人?不懂...
算了...还是想不通!! 只懂要醒了!!
先恭喜我啦!!又中奖了!!奖品是一夜的失眠!!
要考试了...那个冲劲还没出现....
这次考试成绩应该也是凶多吉少的.....
有很多东西往往是无心的,无意的,却是最伤人的...
有人说爱情在美好的开始它最后常常是不怎么美好地结束...
我想在不怎么美好的开始也未必会有美好的结束....
不懂我想讲什么...只想做个比较狠的人,不必顾虑别人的感受,因为没人会顾我们的感受....

搞不清楚我是谁？？

也许我开始也跟佑泉一样搞不清楚自己到底是谁？
这个问题我想了又想....我还是找不到我想要的答案!
我是谁??我活在这个世界上的意义是什么?
那个属于我的谁想要的是怎样的生活?
不懂..不想懂...也不想去思考...
白天的我是个可爱,带欢乐给大家的人;
黑夜的我是个躲在灰暗的墙角哭泣的人....
应该是吧!谁懂...没人懂...永远不懂....
我只懂现在很低落...只想一个人静静地....